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Why does this always happen? I keep trying to limit myself to one project at a time, but I always end up juggling three or four or more! It’s overwhelming, it’s unnecessary, it’s crazy! And yet, here I am working on three books, a teleplay and a webseries. Don’t get me wrong, I love that I have all these projects to work on, and I LOVE working on all these projects. But sometimes I feel that I’m on some kind of deadline (which I’m not) and they have to get done or…. Or what? There is no or what. So why am I so hard on myself? The days I produce exactly what I say I’m going to produce are happy days, and the days I only accomplish one out of my four goals, I feel like a failure. It’s never ending. I try and stop it by trying to convince myself to stop the self-punishing, but it only seems to last a day or two. Then I go right back to being angry that I couldn’t do what I set out to do for the day. Well, there’s not much I can do, I guess, except keep trying. I’m taking a deep breath as we speak and plowing forward. If I don’t finish everything I set out to finish today, I have to be okay with that. Because, really, what else can I do? I’m tired of chastising myself. It doesn’t do me or my work any good. Wish me luck! 
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